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Tuesday, January 18, 2022

Finally uploaded all my lyrics from the new album LATE STAGE FAD. Check it ouuuut. And all my cassette making supplies arrived this week!! Now the hard part: adjusting the mix so it sounds good on tape :B
Also wanted to drop in a cool band I've been recently inspired by. Martin Newell and the Cleaners From Venus. So inspired by the profilic amount of work Martin and this band have done. Martin has been making music since the 70s and Cleaners From Venus started in 1980 and they're STILL putting out albums! Like wow. My favorite track so far: Corridor Of Dreams. You can find all their music on spotify but also direcly (along with merch) HERE. I found this user made video for the song Marilyn On A Train. Amazing vintage footage. YouTube is being testy and this link is not embedding for some reason so you can check it out HERE!
Hope you enjoy. (: -mm


Friday, January 14, 2022

Took a lil break from the website & journaling to enjoy * the holidays * after finishing Late Stage Fad. Also I got a job at a party store so I've been quite busy with that. I am officially a balloon and party artist. :D Oh yeah.. also...this week... somehow my hands have pressed keys on my laptop which created an effect where blank cassette tapes, cases, and printing materials have been magically paid for and are currently in transit to my house. These materials will be used to create limited batches of my two albums onto cassette tapes. I wasn't planning on doing this but in a coffee-fueled decision making frenzy it just...happened. And I'm glad I entertained this impulse. I should definitely have physical copies of my work, right? Otherwise, if/when reptilian overlords cut off our internet supply - would DEAD MALL ever have existed? Would there be proof for future generations? Just covering my ass for the internet apocalypse.
-mm


Wednesday, October 20, 2021

Late Stage Fad. Officially released. You can listen here. Two years of work finally coming to a close. Put my heart and soul into it. Terrifying to release it to any sort of public audience but I know I should. So here it goes. Hope some people out there find inspiration, catharsis, or whatever else can be found in it.
Love, hugs, and fuzzy spiders -mm


Saturday, October 9, 2021

Haven't had any time to journal since August, been slinging balloons at my new job. Being a balloon artist at a party store sure beats sitting in an office observing my soul die inside an excel spreadsheet. Happiness and low stress are the top top priority. Got it on lock. ANYWAY... Been putting the finishing touches on my second full length album under DEAD MALL. Probably releasing on October 19. Honestly fucking tired of thinking about it and just need to push it out into the universe before it's too late. I definitely over-thought a lot of elements on this album, but I also stretched my comfort zone a lot. Equally risky and liberating. I dunno. I hope at least some tracks will resonate with people. If not, oh well. Shit's been weird. It's been hard to test my vocals without being able to play them live in front of an audience. That affected my album for sure, so that's a thing and it annoys me. Can't wait to book some lil gigs soon. Probably 2022. K bye bye :) -mm

Thursday, August 19, 2021

SONG OF THE DAY:
"The Planet Doesn't Mind"
by New Musik (1982)

New favorite band. So many good songs. Currently digging this one a lot.




Sunday, August 8, 2021

SONG OF THE DAY:
"Spirits In The Material World"
by The Police (1981)

Totally forgot about this song. Used to blast this in my car a long time ago. Still incredibly relevant...the lyrics. Nothing has changed.
-mm




Saturday, August 7, 2021

Birthday was chill. Kinda sad this year. Got a haircut. Accidentally looks like early Pat Benatar and I'm very ok with it. So today's song is a live take of Heartbreaker. She's such a badass. Definitely an inspiration for my singing/performance.
-mm




Thursday, July 15, 2021

Religion is regarded by the common people as true, by the wise as false, and by the rulers as useful.
- Lucius Annaeus Seneca


Wednesday, July 14, 2021

SONG OF THE DAY:
"Port Isabel" by Led er Est (2009)

Today's sky is an electric blanket of clouds. Finally. Not a fan of Seattle summers. The sun is way too imposing. Been having trouble sleeping. -mm




Thursday, July 1, 2021

SONG OF THE DAY:
"Reptile" by The Church

This song aches and makes me think of this coffee shop that used to exist in my hometown where all the weirdos hung out late at night. -mm




Wednesday, June 23, 2021

Been working on the new album a lot lately, hence less journaling. Wrote two new songs this month. One of which is about finding new inspiration after a dormant period & the frustrations of artist block. The song is called Dungeon.
Lyrics as follows...

~ D U N G E O N ~

Here she lies, unsure
with wider thoughts
painful and pure
in a room
a room

frost melting off
lost, but hanging on

beyond this room, i know
beyond the frost and snow
a sacred place can be found
where minds are sprouting ground

near the window
sliver of the sun
is coming through
coming through

idle for way too long
lost, but hanging on
what more can i do?

near the window
sliver of the sun
is coming through
coming through

AH YES, there’s that place i know
all my strength has made it so
peeling back the stone
i am free from all my own
nightmares i’ve lived, i know
dark is needed to see the glow
my mind is sprouting ground
warmth shining all around

don’t mind the dungeon door
the window is always yours
to come through

-mm


Wednesday, June 2, 2021

SONG OF THE DAY:
"Martyr" - Oppenheimer Analysis

Today, it's hot and sticky and this song is stuck in my head. I played it a lot last year in October (2020). Takes me back to that place and time, which was a brief happy period amongst a year of chaos. Forever looking forward to Halloween season. But especially this year.
-mm




Friday, May 21, 2021

Please accept this gift of live radio recordings from New York City circa 1980-1984. Post-disco dance mixes by the legendary Shep Pettibone. Press play & have a good weekend. -mm



This treble-heavy video is a little painful, but still posting it.


Yes, baby.



Wednesday, May 12, 2021

SONG OF THE DAY:
"True Love"
by Ric Ocasek

As a child of the 80s/90s, and growing up having a dad who constantly blasted new wave cassette tapes, I've always been a big fan of The Cars. Ric Ocasek was their main dude, as cheif singer/songwriter, he set the tone and image for the band. (Though I do love Ben Orr's singing better ;) Ocasek's contributions to rock music span wide, producing for many notable bands over the decades. What I love about Ric Ocasek's songwriting is his ablility to seamlessly combine rock and roll elements while fully embracing new wave instrumentation - i.e. the tasteful inclusion of the synthesizer. I recently discovered Ric's solo stuff from the later 80s, which definitely echoes moods of The Cars, but a little softer, possibly darker. Particularly vibing with the album "This Side Of Paradise" from 1986. As today's song, "True Love" is probably my favorite track from the album, but other notable faves are Keep On Laughin' & Hello Darkness. Here's to yet another new wave gem for my lil journal. Cheers. -mm




Friday, April 30, 2021

SONG OF THE DAY:
"This City"
by John Foxx

All the kisses taste of dust here
And it's too late to change my mind
I'm still in love with the
private world
Sometimes I've got to pull the blinds
Why aren't you dissolving yet?
And why's that car always there?
I got a letter from America
Somebody else lost in the glare
In this city, this city, oh!
This city, this city, oh!
I'm walking through this big arena
I'm passing millions, missing some
When someone touches me
like it's all alright
I think it's memory,
but it's still so right
There were always dreams of leaving
My face gets dimmer every day
When I can see myself I'm waving
I'm drawing back into the crowds again...
In this city, this city, oh!
This city, this city, oh!






Thursday, April 22, 2021

SONG OF THE DAY:
"Screaming In The Night"
by Krokus

Hailing from Solothurn, Switzerland, this power ballad was the band's biggest hit. The song was released in 1983 on the album Headhunter. The music video has that classic campy low-budget production, and was in heavy rotation in the early days of MTV. Fun fact: the band's name was inspired by a field of flowers (based on the crocus flower, which in German is spelled with a K and includes "rok" because...rock and roll, baby.) Anyway, super catchy chorus. A gem of a song. Crack open a cold one and enjoy. \m/ -mm




Thursday, April 15, 2021

SONG OF THE DAY:
"Nothing Stays In One Place For Long"
by Massimiliano Pagliara

Italian DJ and producer currently based out of Berlin. First discovered Massi in 2012 & was pretty obsessed with his album Focus For Infinity from 2011. Haven't been keeping tabs on him too much over the years, but I recently discovered this new track he released in 2020. The cover artwork is sick too (created by Italian designer Francesca Franceschi.) Love his sound choices, always has that classic 80s house sound, and the sonic heaviness of deep house. Thick, large, and open wide. Everything he does slaps. Highly recommend browsing his catalog. E*N*J*0*Y -mm




Monday, April 12, 2021

Trying to stay positive. Emotionally drained. Spiritually distracted. There's so much garbage in the world. Too many fearful, hateful people inflicting pain and trauma on others. So much suffering and injustice. I'm grateful that my main struggle this week is having a sore back from lifting furniture into a new apartment. I have a home and I am incredibly thankful. In hopes of finding at least a few minutes of joy today: Here's a throwback to my teen years. Listening to bangers like this one, hiding under my covers with my walkman, blissing out at full volume on headphones when I was supposed to be asleep. -mm

SONG OF THE DAY:
"It Feels So Good" by Sonique

**Here's a great article I just found too.




Tuesday, April 6, 2021

Getting a lot done, yet the list keeps growing...almost thicker and longer like an unwanted hair. Neverending bureaucratic b.s. I keep thinking about the movie Brazil. Filling out forms to fill out other forms to make appointments for forms. I am a real person! I promise! -mm


Friday, April 2, 2021

SONG OF THE DAY:
"Sands of Time" by Fleetwood Mac

From the 1971 album entitled Future Games, an earlier line up of the band, this song is written by guitarist Daniel Kirwan. All of the guitar parts are excellent.. beautiful melodic plucks and chords, and then a somber echoing slide guitar that sends you into a trance of deep contemplation. I want to include the lyrics on this one too. Absolutely haunting. Enjoy. -mm



The magic of
a blackened night
Can go so far
but not seem right

Although my love
will drive away the sunshine
The magic of
a blackened night
And before you go show me
All the words of love

And the falling sands of time
Blow my wind and drifted by
To and fro the trees still bend
Wondering what the host will send
We will go right down to the sea
Bathing in light
we will be free to wander

And the falling sands of time
Blow my wind and drifted by
To and fro the trees still bend
Wondering what the host will send
We will go right down to the sea
Bathing in light
we will be free to wander

And the falling sands of time
Blow my wind and drifted by
To and fro the trees still bend
Wondering what the host will send
We will go right down to the sea
Bathing in light
we will be free to wander

The magic of
a blackened night
Can go so far
but not seem right

Although my love
will drive away the sunshine
The magic of
a blackened night



Sunday, March 28, 2021

Apartment obtained. Personal belongings secured in storage. Everything is panning out pretty smoothly. We should be moved in and ready to exist here within the next few days. I've been listening to this song on repeat for days, and while driving all the way up the coast. I love how as the song unfolds and builds, it explores complex minor chords that feel dark and uncertain ... but then the bassline eventually creates a resolving major chord. Like in life, situations can be unsettling, but as the story unfolds, you can find moments of understanding and peace. -mm

SONG OF THE DAY:
"Solar Flare" by Linea Aspera




Monday, March 22, 2021

Taking a pause to recalibrate my living sensors. Brb. -mm


Wednesday, March 17, 2021

SONG OF THE DAY:
"Pit Stop" by Naked Eyes

From their 1983 debut album Burning Bridges. The band was considered more of a two-hit wonder with "Promises, Promises" and "Always Something There To Remind Me," but there are many other bangers on this album that I personally think are even better songs than their hit singles. Apparently, the band never toured to promote this album because they found it so hard to re-create the sonic brilliance in a live setting - Bummer! Quite possibly why they weren't as big as they could/should have been. This album has a such a classic new wave feel, but holds a unique mood of it's own. A mixture of darkness & depth, yet somehow upbeat. It's sort of a "things aren't going well, but I'll be okay." Like one door shutting, and another door opening. A sense of hopefulness, resilience. Tasteful synth decisions, clear and heavy hitting melodic pop songwriting. This album is a total gem and I encourage anyone who digs today's track to check out the entire album. Other fave tracks: "I Could Show You How"
and "A Very Hard Act To Follow"
Enjoy! :) -mm




Sunday, March 14, 2021

Been sitting on these new songs for so long that I can't decide which direction to take them anymore. Song structure can heavily depend on the lyrics and the timbres I wanna use. Mellotron sounds keep appearing. Then pipe organ. Then back to cliche synthwave sounds :/ I love some of those cutting 80s synth sounds, but it's overdone. I wanna evolve from that and make weirder shit. Trumpet? Lol. Kinda just want to completely start over. When you sit around with a song for too long, the urgency leaves, the quick decision making melts down into infinite possibility and then you go in circles and drive yourself insane :) -mm


Friday, March 12, 2021

SONG OF THE DAY:
"Somebody Else's Dream"
by Phil Lynott (1982)

Phil Lynott... How do we summarize this legend into a small internet paragraph? We cannot. Everything I'm about to say will fall short of emphasizing how important, influential, and talented Phil was. Leader of the immortal rock band of Ireland, Thin Lizzy, Phil was an incredible songwriter, lyricist, producer, and iconic vocalist. Even as Thin Lizzy was continuing their success into the '80s, Phil started putting out solo albums. I recently discovered this track, which was never released on an album and only appears as the B-side of the single "Together". ("Together" has been in my heavy rotation for the past year - another great gem.) Phil was flirting with more electronic sounds of the new wave / new romantic / synthpop scenes of the day in these solo releases, which lended to showing a softer side of Phil's character. Even behind his famed "bad boy" persona, Phil's heart and soul were always poured into his songwriting and lyrics. This track is no exception. Phil would succumb to drug addiction complications in 1986 at the age of 36, only a few years after this song was released.




Thursday, March 11, 2021

SONG OF THE DAY:
"The Picture" by German synthpop trio Hubert Kah. Discovered this beautiful track while watching Once Bitten (1985) starring Jim Carrey. Heard it in the background of the ice cream truck kissing scene and had to find out what it was. It's a dynamic mix of percolating synth timbres, woven tightly with melancholic chords, carried by a protruding arpeggiated bass and driving dance beat. And the FM tube bell, echoing as a call & response with the chorus vocals, is the bright red cherry on top...
Romantic, haunting, and sort of sad.
My personal favorite combo. :)
-mm




Monday, March 8, 2021

SONG OF THE DAY:
"Standing In The Rain" by Don Ray.
From the 1978 album Garden of Love, produced with the legendary Cerrone. The tight, crisp, and aggressive production of Cerrone insists on movement of the body. Another great track that showcases that stellar production style is Cerrone's "Give Me Love". Anyway...the synth solo at 2 min. in today's track is absolutely sublime. Gives me chills every time. ~magnifique~
French Disco at it's finest.
-mm




Sunday, March 7, 2021

Two posts in one day! I have no life! Or am I finally living??? Decided to merge the music inspo page into this journal page. Cuz... I want to share songs and talk about why they are cool, and then also mix in some random cryptic personal entries to make it weird. So stay tuned for that! -mm


Sunday, March 7, 2021

Did a huge donation run yesterday. Half of my stuff is now gone. Hopefully someone else can find use and joy from it. Harder to let go of stuff as I get older. But it's necessary. Driving up the coast, we need to go as lightly as possible. Shedding layers. Things I clung to for sentimental reasons. They only become limitations. I still have everything that is important to me. Besides basic needs like clothing and food... I kept my art supplies, music equipment, and roller skates. That's all I need. -mm


Wednesday, March 3, 2021

Wine drunk and playing Dr. Mario on SNES. Bye. -mm
P.S. listen



Monday, March 1, 2021

Three more weeks. To find closure. To say goodbyes. To be at peace with what I've experienced (good and bad) over the past ten years here in this particular space on planet earth. I'd say I accomplished quite a bit that I can be proud of. Even if it all came to a screeching hault, with a swift kick in the ass as I exit. I still did it. Can't take it away from me. I'm taking it with me.
Goodnight. -mm



Thursday, February 25, 2021

Death lives inside life, as bones dance within the body.
Yesterday is within today.
Yesterday never dies.

-Luis Alberto Urrea



Tuesday, February 23, 2021

Update: The journal stuff has now moved to its own page (here) rather than bogarting the home page. :)
* * *
I miss singing my heart out in my bedroom. Can't wait to have a space to do that again soon. Trying hard to focus on the good things ahead. Sometimes it feels like I'm not even allowed to feel anything other than despair, because it's been so long without something positive on the horizon. I keep wrestling with that. Trying to let myself feel joy. -mm




Sunday, February 21, 2021

Considering moving the journal stuff to it's own separate page. Hrmmmm... I know I'm going to just end up posting songs to express my feelings rather than words. Seems like I've always been better at expressing myself that way. :> We're moving to Washington in a month. Equal parts happy and sad. Doors opening and closing. I've never let myself stay stagnant for too long. -mm




Monday, February 15, 2021

Revamped the website colors again... and will absolutely change stuff several times more. It's therapeutic. Been listening to this song a lot lately. Relevant.. -mm




Thursday, February 11, 2021

Been using these "ambient" youtube vids as a way to keep calm & focused. Super nerdy but they work. :) HERE is one with forest rain sounds that I love. There are also a few more faves on my link page HERE. Enjoy -mm


Tuesday, February 9, 2021

The name dot pitch comes from an old screen name I had back in the late 1990s. The definition of dot pitch can be found HERE! It's a metaphor I guess... for all the stuff in-between. The hidden components, the hidden story. There is always more than meets the eye. -mm


Monday, February 8, 2021

Added links to my music and art pages today. Most of it is from the past. Working on new ideas...I have a handful of new songs. Themes of loss, greed, and the oscillating definition of luxury. -mm


Friday, February 5, 2021

Still fiddling with colors and trying to remember how html works. It's been about 15 years lol. Quite refreshing to be able to type words into this new and empty space. Blank canvas. Trying to find peace. This feels like a hopeful path for that. -mm


Thursday, February 4, 2021

Decided to create a website today. A place where I can throw my thoughts, feelings, and art into an internet abyss without swimming through sponsored ads and bots. Not sure what to do next, but more to come. -mm


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